When i sink to the floor in the summer i still

Feel you there in the water 

In the carpet some stains

Like blood in the water 

Like blood in the water 

The headrests in my uncle’s car

Probably still have the memories of 

Being a child in the summer

When his memories were warm

Inside of his head, not at rest

Not at rest

I can still feel you there in the water 

Creeping around the reef there are diamonds

There in the water there is some strange body

On the seabed floor 

There is my uncle’s body 

Like blood in the water

Some stain expands forever 

From my arm that gripped yours

On the way down to the floor; sank

Like my uncle’s body in the water

How could you find this beautiful

How could you smell the blood

Circling in the water

Sinking down to the mud

Searching for my father

Way out in the deep

Don’t look down i tell myself

Don’t look down and he grabs my chin

How could you find this beautiful i tell him

And i claw at the stains in the carpet

They spread out more like blood in the water

I scramble toward shore, i give up on my father

When i look down i see Him there in the summer

When i look down i see Him, His hand at the door

I know He’s circling the deep

For me down there at the bottom

There i am paralyzed on the bathroom floor

How can you find this beautiful i tell Him

And i sink a little more 

All this blood in the water 

All this blood in the water

There i am

On my knees on the carpet in the summer

On my back spread out for him in the sand

How can you find this beautiful i tell Him

He chains me down on the floor beside Him

The stains expanding when he tells me we’re home